condition: tired as hell
doing: lunarstorming
music now: cat rapes dog - people as prey
hair color: black with blond growth
figurehead: pankhghha!.
love: yes. indeed. for king and country
hate: no.
drugs: nada
food: ok.
stress: nah.not directly
qoute: god does not exist
reading now: nothing for the momento. . . . .
status genius: Ralf Hutter, Florian Schneider, Moby, Richard D. james, Karl Bartos, Robert A. Heinlein, Terry Pratchett
feeling like: love

00-06-21

Jag „ter sover grekar. Terror and violence. kom just hem fr†n jobbet typ. eller. ja.  jag
har la badat iallafall . s†nt som man brukar g”ra n„r man „r hemma. visserligen har vi ju
badkar i huset, men jag har inte haft tid att prova det direkt. . . Var hos  karin  ig†r.
det  var guld och .. s†nad„ringa gr”na saker. sk”nt att komma iv„g lite fr†n jobbet „nd†.
„ven  fast det „r kul som fan. jag menar, det skadar ju faktiskt inte att ligga i  s„ngen
och  mysa med anna till 04:00 p† morgonen och lyssna p† sagor, samt g”ra om sagorna  till
porrfilmsversioner  .  m„sterknullaren  i  st”vlar.  det  „r  en  hit  har  jag  h”rt  ;)
Tara skulle ocks† sova i samma rum fr†n b”rjan,  men det  slutade  med att hon flydde upp
till  martins s„ng efter 3 minuter, anna och jag hade disco till sagorna med lamporna  ;)
hihihi,  d† fick ju hon en urs„kt att tr„nga sig p† d„roppe ocks†. nej. ich pysa och  „ta
lite. i morgon „r det jobb igen och p† fredag „r det fest. kram p† er .                  

Gutenabent. So, moved to stockholm. or. well. kinda, still  stuff  to  bring  there  but
well. I moved loads of stuff to stockholm. Starting to feel   kinda  stressed  actually,
when i have no place to like.. ueeh. well. live? . Or, i have,  i  just  gotta put up my
stereo and my computer in my room in stockholm, and it will  feel  just  like home, even
though its not done yet ;) hehe. . . And well, i guess there  will be plenty of stuff to
do tomorrow at work, so ill be working all night with putting up  stuff  in  my  room ;)
have to get my old amplifier fixed to, so i can have a nice sound ;) ...  grahg! ordered
arvika festivalen tickets. bueeyhh! :) it will be fun as hell.. everyone is going there,
or at least, loads of people :P Gueaah, iam feeling like. confused. i dont  have control
over the situation.. (well you know me)..  always  have  to  know  where  iam going, and
what's up, and what everyone is doing, trying to coordinate things. luckly, i forget all
about it at work, since its so darn funny  :) hehe. well well well. i guess i should try
to get some sleep, but iam not sure i can right now, iam not directly tired or anything.
I did a fun thing today, i exchanged a  poem  on  our  fridge  here  in  Katrineholm, my
parents used to have a poem that i made a song for in the  music  creation with computer
class on the fridge.. i exchanged it against the apple poem i wrote.. let's see how long
time it takes for them to notice the difference ;) hehe.  gotta  go  now  or  something,
will be gone for some time. so take care. bye.                                          

quick one this time. iam packing my last stuff  here  (the  computer  is  going down) ..
everything is just fine at work. We got a villa right next to  the  office for 7000 kr /
month, so 4 of us graphicans are going to live there. yes yes  yes.  great . iam  moving
tomorrow. and well, i will have no phone there, and we'll get internet in like  2  weeks
at work, so i guess this page will be out of updates  for  a  little  while,  ill try to
write as much as possible during the weekends, when i  go a way  to  weird  places  with
internet connection. :) . Well. IAM JUST HAPPY. OKAY :) seeya. loveya.                  

okay, first day at work. REALLY nice. really really nice.  all  through nice people, and
seems like there will be loads of fun :) we did nothing b ut  drank  cola,  and  talked,
got to know each other (and some about the game of course) today. so nice.My grandmother
is also getting a lot better,she was feeling better then ever today she said(wonder what
they pump into her ;P), but its nice. so everything is like just really fine. . . really
tired right now, wrote two stupid poems, which i put up here on the page.read and enjoy.

Well. My mother came today, all upset and all.. well.. my grandmother has been sick, and
well..  she  was  operated  and everything seems to be really well now.. and thats nice,
before my mother knew she called  my  grandfather  like 4000000 times per minute and she
was actually really annoying, but everything is  fine now. we have been cleaning my room
like all day.. .. well not just only my  room,  the rest of the apartment to of course..
its a pain in the ass, but it has to  be  done.  there's  like  nothing  left in my room
except the computer and the stereo now.. the most important  things  ;)  hihi.  well.  i
start working tomorrow.. guasch. iam kinda nervous,  and  i  have to get up early, but i
dont care about going to bed anyway. it will work  out..  in time.. well. going to write
some really soon, so there might be some more poems to read here tonight. enjoy.        

i update. i feel more fucked up then before, that's why the page has  now  becomed  more
fucked up. enjoy, or dont. i dont care ! :P                                             

well well, updated this rotten hole once more.. with a  guestbook,  its in the tell your
thoughts of concrete part.. and i added one  more poem, about  death,  enjoy,  and  dont
forget to sign the guestbook! :)                                                        

Okay, major update now. Added the long awaited alcatraz deathdrug 2000  picture by elvis
and me. And i re uploaded the mp3 song senap. the song korben 2000  will  be  out  soon,
and i wrote a poem in swedish, that is to be found at the philosphy page. read and so...

I guess we ditch the stories from the spelmanstämma today to, iam to depressed.. well...
iam not really depressed, but my grandmother is in hospital and  iam  kind  of  worried,
been cleaning some today, and been making some music.. uhh. well, i am  about  to  do  a
major update on this site in a little while, so stay tuned. . . .                       

Got home from the spelmanstämma. guash iam tired. the first day was good. the second day
was okay. gueash iam tired again. I called loads of weird phonecalls.  it w as  nice  :P
hehe, I even called my old friend Hadar in israel on the cellphone  :)  hihi.  its  good
that it is cheaper then normal phone.. well. ahhu.  ill  write  more later, and tell all
the weird stories, iam just to tired right now.                                         

I dont ever wanna feel, like i did that day. IIIIIIIIH. Been cleaning  all day. Shit iam
tired as fuck. Well, tomorrow ill go for lesjöfors, then on friday  i  go  to  Ramsäter,
a "spelmanstämma". will be fun. meet everyone malung. eat. call me if you  need to,  you
who need to have got my number. or mail to ask . rov. (ett adjekstantiv)                

Satan in my head. God iam having the worst hangover since  i  dont  know  what, a really
really long time though :P . *dead*. Karin & I where at Fribergs place yesterday, guash,
i drank almost a bottle of his homemade  white  whine.  ihhh... my poor head, pity me ;)
Dont know if iam going to Ramsäter this  weekend now, though i really want to, of course
its expensive as fück. well, i guess i  can  borrow  money  from  myself.  Guashchh, iam
confused about yesterday to, it was fun as fuck, but i sent like, i  dont  know how many
sms messages. .. .. .. iam trying to find out though ;) kinda hard  with  the  phone  in
german..yeah yeah, whatever. seeyalaternow.                                             

Guasch, iam so darn confused. Things have been really like. uh. i dont know, both really
good and really. well not really bad. Iam trying to feel sad, but i cant. Amanda  and  i
have decided just to be friends. Well, at first there where more. and then  there  where
not. well. Iam confused i can tell. but i guess it will pass. Of course iam sad, but iam
still happy, since i have like, all my friends, and that she  and  i  are still friends.
I cant really be sad. well. :) maybe that's a  good  thing .  .  At least there has been
loads of party, with loads of weird happenings  (like  elvis peeing in the sink), and us
scaring the shit out of some 14-15 year old kids by  running around in dresses, naked...
(how that is possible? :P). Well, and Karin is here  right  now,  its  nice. Tara & pixy
will probaly come here tomorrow. And there will be party at fribergs place. And the next
weekend we are going to a "spelmansstämma".. Well. With all the  malung  people. I think
it will be fun as hell.. well :P yeah, yeah, gotta go now. bye. take care.              

sooo :) Rikard and i watched startrek and drank beer today :)  I  made  him  go  to  the
systembolaget for his first time ;) *lol* Well. I've been really excited and  everything
about this job. Last night we had an irc meeting *lol*. It was nice. Tomorrow  iam going
to Örebro. YES ! :) hihi. Meeting, well, i must admit, the primary reason  for  that iam
going there, Amanda ;) *lol*.. iam pathetic i know. But there's also loads  of  people i
want to meet (i just remembred how much i miss satanist-karlsson and everyone  :)  *lol*
So i guess ill have a good time though :) Gotta go now. love and kisses.                

Ohh, loads of things have happned. shit. i dont think i can tell  everything  . .  phew .
elvis is here though. its fun. I've been working on worksamples all weekend. i got a  job
today *happy*. Going to work at grin, a gamecompany from the 10 or 12 or something,  that
means i have to move to stockholm. but it will be fun as hell. well. gotta go  soft  now.
take care. love.                                                                        

iam not drunk, its .. äähh.uh. hihi. well. i miss her *lol*. thjogh.. though uia . .  iam
not oin.. going to cao.. call now ;) iam drunk, ve.. been out with the class, eating  and
drinking ;) ah. guscha. ill go. i love. .hihi. and i miss. well take care.               

inspiration. 3dstudio. long phonecalls. draw. paint. love. eat. miss. party tomorrow with
class.                                                                                   

Iam gone, i dont know what i've been writing here for the last days, i so have no clue at
all, iam totally confused. and i dont care. i hav'nt been writing that much here, take it
as a good sign though. I have other more important things in life to do. *lol* school  is
over  now  though, just have -one- more thing that i have to attend to tomorrow. it feels
good. guasch iam tired. finished off that god-damn logo for planetzeus today to, thec has
been nagging  me  for  the  last  i  dont  know what time to finish it. see the result at
www.planetzeus.net, the new swedish demoscene portal (comercials! :P). I was planning  on
going to Helsingborg the next weekend, but obviously Amanda has loads of things to do :/.
Well, she's  coming  to Örebro next week anyway, and iam going there to see her, and well
that feels good, I miss  her  so much .. well, guasch iam pathetic. I noticed btw, that i
hav'nt  uploaded  that  god  damn  birdie contribution. well well well. i will .. soon, i
just have  to  boot  windows  and  convert it ;) *lazy as hell* i always forget to, but i
wont  forget  now, i must not forget. uhh. well well. gotta go sleep or so, take care all
of you.                                                                                  

trying to study, trying to not study. trying to  do  something  at  least ;) hihi. was in
Örebro, Kumla and Katrineholm this weekend. what can i say. loads  of  things happned, it
was fun, though the first party, with elvis, frankel and everyone  felt.. well, it was'nt
that nice really.. though we went to the pub instead and had a good  time  all  of  us  i
belive. Henrik's got a new girlfriend, David's  got  a  girlfriend.  Loads  of things has
happned. but is i said. I have to study.  AAAAAAH.  Last  test  ever  tomorrow.  So,  bye
everyone. i might write some more in a while :)                                          

.. weird music. tired. happy. fed up. uh. dissing school tomorrow.  dissing  the  stress.
Iam going home to kartineholm for the weekend. will do for small haircut. uh. well. we'll
see how that turns out. hopefully good ;) going to  get  rid  of that blond growth to  ;)
School is almost done now. uh. does that feel very  very  good  or  what.  its  like  . .
200 000 % ditch next week or so ? ;)  hehehe. well well. gotta go. love.                 

Sent  worksamples  for  photschool  today. updated photosection with a photo of "skorpan"
.Look. two days gone. far to long. i miss. i love.                                       

home home home. again again again. ffdd writes to you -->> 
(föreningen för dåliga dikter).

Kärlek är en kyss,
en varm dag i den svala skuggan,
av ett blomstrande träd,
som doftar utav sommar.

I must warn, iam pathetic

music: covenant - europa                                                                  
place: train                                                                              
been to: helsingborg                                                                      
status: happy as hell                                                                     
love: yes i do ..!! .. oh yes.                                                            
qoute: living in the past                                                                 
eating: kanelbulle                                                                        

Well well well, iam on my way back home to uppsala right now,sitting on the train, writing
.. (wonder when i will run out of batteries, we'll  see). got about 9 hours in front of me
before i get home again. I've been to helsingborg,visiting Amanda this weekend. Well. What
can i say? it has been really really  wonderful.  Okay, iam kinda pop-brain-damaged, but i
think i'll survive that :P Anyways,we have been having a really good time.Played laserdome
and drank some wine on friday ;) hihi. Then saturday we barbecued and watched fight  club.
Weird movie helloooo?! .. hihi. . Well.  someone, ( I  have  no  idea who it is, but i ...
that you can guess who could affect me in such way..well.what was i going to say?:P) hihi.
Someone... okay, amanda, has convinced me to quit with the snus, hello, no one can do that
(?),i consider it a part of me.. Well, maybe not anymore, i mean, i even belive it myself,
there's  something  wrong somewhere here. . . This.. everything that has happned, what can
i say?Damn it iam gonna miss her in like 3 seconds or so (well, i already do, get yourself
togheter stupid :P) .. hihi. I wrote many  stupid lovepoems and stuff, guash am i pathetic
or what? :P.. hihi, i dont know, if iam  going to put up any here. . . Maybe.. ;) .. we'll
see when i get home. . GUAH! (i  just  thought of school ;) hehe, i have a swedish test on
thursday, and tomorrow i have "music creation with computer".I wrote i really stupid space
songtextthingy that iam thinking of using for a song i've just...kinda finished ;) hehehe,
but iam not sure i dare to play it for my  classmates,  if  i  do,  it will be a teacher -
internet - only thing that  iam  going  to do it ;), the hard thing is not to do it, or to
give it to other people,the hard thing is to be with people when they listen to the shit;)
.. we'll see, i'll work on that tonight. .. AHHWWRR.. (thinking of the things i have to do
again ;) *lol* ..I have some worksample photos that i have to send to that god damn school
before the 18'th. hmm.. have to print that shit  tomorrow (which delays the cleaning of my
room with one day, yes :P).. hehe.. not a good thing (with my room, but what the heck ;)..
hehe. When i get to Göteborg iam going to get   myself  something  to  eat,  somewhere  to
recharge theese batteries, and a public pay phone to call my mom or  so  ;) Iam  not  sure
that she's aware of that iam coming home today? .. ehh. what  the  heck  ;) i was not sure
when to go home so ;) thihi.                                                              

Now added some new spring photos. flowers. enjoy :)                                       

And they say that  mp3  kills  the  record  buissnies?  I  never  heard  such  a redicolus
statement! I hearby declare war against those who think in bad terms of mp3.  The first  I
ever heard of Covenant was the album sequencer, which i copied from a friend on mp3. Since
then i've bought 3 other covenant albums (everysingleone they made!). So i think you  guys
should rethink, mp3 can open your mind to music you would never buy otherwise !  :)  hihi.
Anyways. As i said. Bought albums. I've killed my economy again. But ill just have to live
anyways :) hihi. Finished off the artwork class in school today.  BOY am  i happy or what?
No there's about.. just little little little schoolwork left *smile*. Tomorrow  Iam  going
to  Helsingborg  to   visit  Amanda, relax,  play  laserdome,  and  maybe  party  some  :)
Anyway, it  will  be great fun! Iam really looking forward to it :) (Am i relaxing all the
time ?:P). I think you need relaxment to stay human *lol* this is a hard world you know ;)
Anyways.  Going back to the scanning - editing - whatever pictures. I will put up some new
ones in a  while on the page, including the 3d picture  me  and  elvis  did  for birdie :)
yeah, and  last minute news. http://www.spray.se/fastpris <<<--- i orderd. YES.  200  kr /
month. 100h free surf. BOY AM I EVEN MORE HAPPY? LOVE you all!                            

My teacher was very satisfied with the specialwork, i was not.  He  wants  the  school  to
pay me for finishing it. It would be nice. But then i want MUCH money, since  its  a  real
pain in the .. . Had to drink some beer and relax some yesterday,  since  the  specialwork
was finished. But today, we're back to studying again.. UH! hate it.  .. well. almost done
now anyways. That is then.. with my artclass work about Andy Warlhol. .  IT  WILL  BE GOOD
WHEN ITS OVER. I think iam going to Helsingborg this weekend, will be nice, just going  to
buy some tickets. . well. better get going now. continue with the homework *urk*  love.   

Finished off specialwork  for  school.  GOOD.  printing  now.  developed  pictures.  cool.
sleep? nah. go. yes.                                                                      

Iam a rockstar. have glasses. (conclusion, where at karin's place in stockholm  yesterday,
loads of nice people, nice wine, nice games. fun)                                         

love is a disease.                                                                        

Bought record today. Morcheeba - big calm. Very  good.  :)  Bought  dangerous cemicals for
painting. Painted. Idiotic art class teacher wants me to work this  weekend .  UGH!  .  NO
BITTE. But i guess i have to anyways :/ .. Karin is coming to stockholm togheter with Nina
and Kristin.. They're going dancing (how unusual huh? :P) . .  Maybe  i  will go and visit
them this weekend.. I dont know, depends on how much  i  have  to study. Also, its Rikards
birthday today, we all say happy birthday :) We ha ve  been  drinking  beer  and  watching
startrek. nice. nice. go now. bye ! :)                                                    

Innocence can be lost. Maybe it should be told something about the  weekend? . . :) . . it
was just great.. The saturday was wierd, i got los t somewhere,  and well, ahh. who cares.
Anyways, on sunday i went to helsingborg with  my  aunt  and her husband in their car.. it
was nice. . okay, the ride down there was not so.. it was LONG okay ;) *lol* .. Anyways, i
went out with Amanda and her friend Sofie in  the evning. It was really nice. Both of them
are really nice persons. Then on monday.. i   went   to   malmö  to  go  to the labour day
demonstration there. It was really nice to, with a great feeling in the whole arrangement.
And some of my most loved friends was there to :)  . . Vincent, tara,  david,  anders  and
martin. .. :) . It was so great to see  them again  :)  Amanda  and  sofie came later that
evning too, well, actually sofie went home ... quite soon, it was to bad, but still we all
togheter had a great evning. . :)  we  watched jesse james (martins band, which rocks) and
two other  bands  played  to, i dont remeber the first one, it sucked quite badly, but the
other  one. . Mista drizz rocked soooooooo fucking much (my legs still hurt) .. they where
really really good :) .. well .. what  happned then? well of course, what do you think? it
never happned before? we stayed up all  night  singing  weird  songs and talking ;) has it
happned before? *lol* .. you know.. i've been writing this  thing  almost  constantly  for
two months now.. it feels nice . . somewhere to ventilate my feelings ;) *lol*  gotta  go,
seeya all. love.                                                                          

happiness. jump to your own conclusions.                                                  

mycket saknad.			                                                          

saknad.                                                                                   

The sun is shining, the weather is sweet. Hihi, what a perfect day for a party, going away
in an hour or so. Party party party . Gotta go. wont be here for a couple of days. bye!   

YO ! just  finished  off  a  bond  movie  ;) ..  hehe. well, i was supposed to do this job
application thing, but i dont think i will. or  maybe. later. right now iam cooking. well.
uh. Found out today that iam missing 40 points  in  school. EEEEEEIIIIH. So i did 75% of a
60 points course in one hour (boy, do i rock? talk  about  self-confidence :P).  Anyways .
TOMORROW. PARTY :P hihihi. Going to meet starsick for the first time to :) well. I hope it
will be fun.. well i know it will be fun, free booze? SHIT :P gotta go check the  kitchen.
buuuhheey! :) .                                                                           

IH. WELL. Loads of stuff to do, how unusual.  but  everything is fine . hmm. Got back more
grades today . Great grades all through, though,  Mats  was  about  to  give  me  a  G  in
"picture editing" .. Grrr. well. got a VG so its okay :) hehe. Got  MVG  in the web-design
course. WELL. Credits to me for this page ;) *lol* it's not worth  it,  i  know.  but  who
cares. its good for me :) . hehe. Then i sent away two application forms for two  schools,
just one left now. hehe. Well well. love, terror and violence.                            

YYYYO! FUKK IT ! :P its late night. My day is sooo wierd now. uh. iam to tired  to  study,
but i feel to fit to go to sleep. Well, spending a million on the telephone bill  instead,
chatting with nice people. WELL WELL WELL. WELL . AGAIN ;) thihihi. swedish test  tomorrow
morning, uh, i guess i wont be there, i guess i'll be to tired. Tomorrow  night  iam going
to finish all applications for all schools, and send everything away,  including  the  job
iam going to apply for. . . well well well. again :) hihi. Good night everyone. or well.  

UH. HunGRY½! :) but its spring. got back tests today. it was nice. VG+ in swedish :) yes!!
and i fixed the  "company  economy"  too. Just G but what the heck :) hihi. I also fixed a
cd iam going to burn and send to graphic studio in just a little while. gotta go now. HAVE
TO EAT :) LOVE! :)                                                                        

AAAAAAAAHHHHHIIIIII ::)))))) it has been a day  of  happenings  *lol*  . We  started   the
morning with finishing the Assembler course. LALALALALA . NO MORE  NO MORE NO MORE SCHOOL.
Well, okay. SOME SCHOOL. But not that much *happy*. Then i went  to  get  my  grades,  and
i've been filling out, and correcting application forms for different schools. Iam  almost
done now. Just going to fix some stuff tomorrow about them. Then i spoke to Karin :)) yes.
long time ago it was. It was soo nice to hear from her again. She are going away  to  Lund
tomorrow, with Lina, .. uh. they're going out in the forest or something :) . . . And well
i've been arranging stuff in general, like calling around and checking  for  when  we  are
going to malmö, how, where when, why. Everything, and my  life  feels  a  li ttle bit less
dizzy now. its great. *phew* .. :) .. thihihi. LOVE LOVE  LOVE  -  SPRING  SPRING  SPRING.
gotta go. *kisses*                                                                        

yoyo! . Morning has comed. Finally had a goodnight sleep. it feels nice  :)  Did'nt  sleep
much for the whole weekend actually. But it was really nice. or well.  the  first two days
where nice, the last one uh. weird ;) thihi. if you hav'nt got it yet, iam  talking  about
birdie, the demoparty i attended this weekend. The first day, we had a really  nice picnic
outside the party, under a big light. Loads of nice people where  there.  sceners . that's
what i like :P And axl ran around with a video camera  and  took  some uh, really weird ..
hihi.. well :) anyways. it was nice. Then next day  was  just  soft.  well.  did'nt  party
anything or so, but i met nice people and had a good  time.  watched  some  compos .  .  .
Gotta go now, i have like some application forms to fill in, some photos to print out, and
some schoolwork to start with again *lol*. loveya.                                        

Gooday.  ladies & gents. got back from birdie today. i will beam update here for you soon.
sleep is now. love.                                                                       

IHHHIAA ! :) voila, que tal? :Pthihiti. Iam hangoverish, could'nt sleep.  but  i feel fine
anyways :)*lol* Vincent came yesterday.it has  been nice, and i guess it will  continue to
be ;) using rikards computer right now,since  vincent is  asleep  in  my  room ;)  OH!!  I
bought the like, best record ever ..  well,  gee,  not  but,  a really  fucking great one,
yesterday. Moby - play.it soooo  rocks,ever since arvika 98 i've said  to myself,i have to
buy a moby record (you can just guess if he rocks  live  ;)  .. thihi. now iam broke again
but what the fuck, we'll just go for the macaronies for the rest of this  month;)..anyways
today gustav, rikard & greldik is coming here. will be great :) gustav and  rikard will be
here in just a couple of hours actually. And well,tomorrow, elvis is coming  to ! :) . big
rock'n roll ;) thihihi. *snusbreak* as you might now,birdie starts tomorrow.  we are there
to rock, or something like that. i hope i win some  money  ;)  *lol*   i  even  considered
competing in the quake compo, but i dont think iam going to sink that  low ;) .. hihi. "in
my dreams iam dieing all the time".. quote  from  this  record ;)   cute songs.cute world.
vincent and i went to a cafe yesterday,  it was nice, i did'nt quite  remember how nice it
was with a plain old "fika" ;) .thihi.we where thinking of going  there today to actually.
.. i hope so ;) cute girls there and so ..*lol* ..AM I DESPERATE or  what? .. Karin mailed
me  yesterday,   she   said   i   where   to   run   naked   outside   and  celebrate  the
spring. we'll just have to see how drunk i can get on birdie ..  ;) nah. dont wanna be the
new doyle ;) I think iam going to put up the essays  from  this   record  convulte  in the
philosophy section later, moby has written some really really  beautiful  texts on various
politic topics, like veganism, and the treatment of prisoners  in  the  us. guash i really
like this,have to buy some more moby records ;) hihi. i found  a  Morcheeba record to down
the  record  store . .  *phew*  i want that one to so badly, it   contained the songs "the
sea"  and  "part of the process" .. iihh . .  i  want  it  so  badly  ;P.  music-addicted.
well. time to find out something else to do for  like  2  hours  before   rikard    gustav
arrives. maybe some more toasts or something. well. what can i say. love  to  you  all.  i
really needed this relaxment from the schoolwork i can tell :) . LOVEYA! Kisses!          

more more more. schoolwork. did today. tired. tired. tired. will no do more tonight.      

gusch. I've been working on the specialwork for 9.5 hours now. with short foodbreaks. life
is only schoolwork. i need sleep and relaxment. feeling good though. made grea t progress.
more progress to be made tomorrow. vincent will come here wednesday. need be f inished  by
then i belive. sex.                                                                       

rovedroven. Swedish qoute. tired. went home. feel good. made schoolwork.  more  schoolwork
will do tomorrow. sleep now. even. love                                                   

Eventually. When they've finished eating. i went out. and had my food, and some wine,  and
well, a little of everything. BUT. WHAT THE HECK. NO PARTY? . SHIT! Hell.Krizze  obviously
called me earlier today, i checked the number-thingy. forgot about that before. ow i  dont
know where the party is or why or if it is at alls. well. iam just BORED. BORED  as  hell.
sitting here. facing death or something. I hav'nt felt so much distress as i do   now  for
YEARS. FUCK IT.                                                                           

What would you have done? Well. I've done this. Iam in my room, in katrineholm, trying  to
get a momen alone. My family is eating, together  with  my  grandmother.  I  felt,  i just
could'nt accept it today. They're eating "k”ttf„rs†s". Well. Meat that is, and feel i just
cant take it anymore. it makes me sick. To  see t hem sit there and chew of something that
used to be alive. So. Iam terrorising them  with music, loud as hell, and i refuse to talk
to them. Its away of expressing that  i   will  not  take  it  anymore.  It's  discusting.
NO HUMAN HAS THE RIGHT TO EAT ANYTHING  THAT IS OR USED TO BE ALIVE. that's exactly how  i
feel right now. I usually doesnt feel  this way, but something inside me felt its time  to
put it this way right now. It's SICK. FACE IT.                                            

update. philosopy. lovehate. read.                                                       

sleep. iam tired. and happy. happy happy. PRISONER ! RE-RUN! SWEDISH TV4 NEXT YEAR!!!! !!!
YES.YES.YES. i cant possibly describe my happines.  terrorised  neibourghs  all  day  with
evil covenant. evil evil evil. danced my ass of. it was funny. love. go. sleep. love. sex.
wrote text. about love and hate. will be here soon. in philosophy  section.  when  iam not
tired that is.                                                                            

Day was boring. to hell. boring. In  school i died. did nothing. ditched the the art class
even, what's the world  coming  to?  anyways. felt that i had to do something, so i joined
rikard out for some food  and  then  took  off for  Katrineholm.  Some  relaxment is never
wrong. or is it? well. no time to think of school until monday. then i will study as hell.
but right now, i dont want to. simple. maybe ill find a party for the  weekend. i hope so.
iam talking to krizze right now, boel's little sister, they're gonna  have  a  party  with
their school class on saturday i think. maybe ill go there. snus. internet.  and  cofee or
soda. its life from time to time :P of course, you cant  use  it  to  impress  others, but
what the heck ;) dead stars still burn. My mother is not home  yet,  she's  in  lindesberg
working, so ill see her tomorrow. i guess ill go out downtown, and try to bump  into  some
old friends, and pay some bills, and maybe buy some records if i find some :P I NEED  MORE
COVENANT. AND I NEED IT NOW ;) . they're gonna play at arvika. YES YES YES. LOVE AND  SEX.
I found out that my tiredness comes from boredom actually. BOREDOM  is  the source off all
EVIL. hell. I need to be less bored, which means less school, and less  pressure. uh. cant
be done. have to try some other way. gotta gett a soda. now.  soda.  Grandmother is coming
home from spain tomorrow to. heck. she flies around. maybe ill get time to  visit her. and
maybe i can visit my grandfather and my other grandmother to. it would be nice.  was  long
time ago now. time to leave this hole of stinking shit. bye. love. kisses. sex.           

Day was good. is good. first, mayhem test in swedish.  went  good.  then  mayhem sleep and
mayhem internet and mayhem xmms plugins. after that mayhem  depressed.  mayhem  bloodsugar
being weird. go mayhem eat at mayhem max. mayhem feel mayhem good again. mayhem  party  at
mayhem weekend? mayhem hope so.                                                           

Tired. As hell.  Slept After school. Planning for demo.  Tomorrow  swedish-test  for  five
hours is. bought food at ica. cookies. eat. die. gnu. vrote about richard stallman & linus
torvalds. done with "p-e".feel.good.that.other.die.want.girl.&.life.now.                  

Aburahani! Slept some. Did some things i had to do for the "picture editing"  class. Spoke
to vincent on phone. He was feeling nice, he had started to play football ;) in the örebro
official punkteam or something like that ;) they've never won a match  *lol*  .. Well, iam
feeling quite okay, did some stuff on the specialwork to . uh . Vincent  might  be  coming
here for birdie, which will be nice if he will come. Birdie will be a party of alcohol,not
of computers this year i belive, just deliver the entrys for the competitions  and then go
for the booze ;) *lol* .. i think it will be fun .. Most  people  seems  to  be in for the
alcohol way instead of the nerd way :P well  well  well, think i'll have to get up in time
for the morning lessons in school tomorrow,  which  sucks.  but  well, have to finish that
fucking course, and go for the assembler *dillemma* .. ah . um .  just  repeating  myself.
go now. bye.                                                                              

Uh, my keyboard brokedown yesterday, bought a newone today, not an expensive one, but .. a
keyboard, simply :P going to paint it soon, as soon as i 've  had  some  food.  School was
actually okay today, the "picture editing" course is kinda okay, but it will be over soon,
and i have some stuff to do for it tonight, but well, i will do  that,  and some tomorrow,
then we are going to finish off the assembler course. YES. Special work is to. tonight.uh.
M called yesterday, she's coming here the 28'th to go to a Lars  Vinnerbäck  consert  with
me. flow. flux. forgotten. write later tonight. love.			                  

tired, as hell iam. We wore at greldik's place this weekend, me and  rikard  and elvis, it
was nice and soft, maybe to soft ;) *lol* . come on, its spring here now  :)  feels  nice,
though, as i said, iam tired ;) .. tomorrow school and 200 % studying starts,  it will be,
well, hard, but after this week we have our easter break, .. and .. well, i  have to study
then to, but it will be okay. 'cause after that, ill be  finished   . uhm.  . And loads of
things are happening this spring, birdie, vajsing, th e  first  of  may  in  malmö, and of
course, school ends, YES YES YES YES ! . uh. well, gotta go for a shower  and  some  food,
see ya. love ya.                                                                          

so, the nervouse breakdown yesterday killed me or so ;) . Uh it was  really something that
was not good. uh, my mother came here at 00:00 in the night, to have  a talk with me, that
is by car from Katrineholm, which is far away. uh. Anyways,  today   iam feeling better, i
found out that there is'nt really that much to do. We're going to  greldik  this  weekend,
and next week iam really going to finish everything off. After that i will have no more of
computer lessons :)) . Uh. Well. gotta get on the net now ;) mum is watching rederiet.  so
bye.                                                                                      

We are victims in the end. Uh. Just finished readin Double Star by the great R.A.H. guash,
i should have been studying, but i've just studied some.  uh,  i  hope its enough. well, i
belive its enough to be honest. . School so  kills  me right now, iam stressed to death, i
begun the picture editing course in school  today. uh, its going to be finished the 12'th!
can you belive that?? . AAAAH. STRESS.  and  i  have  my  special  work,  and  i  have the
assembler, and tomorrow i have TWO fucking tests, one in swedish and one in uh. . company-
fucking-killing-economy. SHIT and HELL. I just wish that I sometime could   relax, and NOT
take so much work upon my shoulders. Ih, and even though i know i have to study,  i  just,
cant do it all the time, i guess its human. you need some spare time. Uh. HELP ME! .      

tired.tired as hell. mother was here today. was only on swedish in school. mother cleaned,
even though i toled her not to. I hate it when she comes here and cleans  ;)   . SHE's NOT
ALLOWED to :P . i hate her for that ;) . Anyways, we got a new key   for the  washingplace
now, and we cleaned some, so now i can have decent evil syntezhiser clothes for tomorrow;)
worked quite lot on my spec work, but there's loads left to do,  and  tomorrow   i have to
study all night for the company economy, hav'nt tuched it today. but what the heck. talked
to karin to today. it was nice, she was totally crazy and had some  people  there  that  i
dont know at all, but they seemed to know me ;) . well. what the heck ;) have to go. love.

The record i bought saturday so rock, uh, just had to say that ;). Actually its late night
(or morning if you like that better), and as usual i cant sleep, iam not tired at all, its
hell, but well ;) . My mother is  coming later today, uh, feels as if i have to clean, but
i wont, iam to  damn  lazy ;) Cooked a big vegetables thing today, while speaking with gso
on the phone  :P  Well,  nice  to  hear from him anyways :) .. Actually, i have nothing to
write, but who cares ? ;) . I am  feeling  kinda  okay , but  thinking  of school makes me
shiver, i dont wanna go,  i  wanna  quit,  i  dont  waaaaaaaant to go ;) iam desperate for
something more giving to do,  its  always  a  big dillemma, but since iam ending my senior
year this very year, it would feel kinda  strange to quit. Altough, it feels hard to stand
the damn shit. I think i have a test in company economy this very week, and i have to work
some everyday on my  "special-work"  . uh. But well, cant let this shit kill life when its
spring. Just listen to  adrenalin-evil-syntheziser  and  enjoy  life,  i  think that's the
recepie, you cant go around feeling sorry for yourself, instead, you  have to do something
about it, like, taking part in school or something ;). I think that  we're going to engage
ourselves in the assembler course tomorrow, at least  i  soo  hope so.  Think iam going to
bring the small speakers to school and terrorise my classmates while we code or something.
*evil*. Rikard & I watched two startrek movies today, insurrection, which i've seen before
and .. uh. i dont know, but number 6 of the old ones, it  was really good, and we got some
great ideas for the new upcoming spantobi  demo.  we will  crush your asses at birdie this
year ;) . well. gotta go. cant sit here and  do  nothing,  lets  start  reading  something
instead. bye. love you all.                                                               

Okay, I was out with Amanda yesterday, it was fun as hell actually :) and i  met  some  of
her friends to, sophie and anders. great fun, bought covenant's first record  :)  .  Elvis
and i went home in the night, since we had nothing to do. We we're actually   set to go to
a party at fribergs place, but we came here to late, so we went home, just   to  find that
rikard was still at home. So, we did what we usually do, some 3dstudio :P .  Well,  its  a
day later today, so i guess i have to go now, ill write some later :) *lol* bye.          

Goooood mooooorning world :P . *dead*. well,  not  exactly, i just had a bath and  well, i
dont have a toothbrush with me to elvis, so i hav'nt brushed my teeth yet, but well  :P ..
we visited a party last night, huh. We had like a million kilos of trouble getting  there,
but at least it was the first outdoor party of the year :) .. it was kinda okay, not  very
boring, not very fun, but kinda okay, excep t for the million of tons of drugs there,  but
i did'nt take any, decided to -NOT- smoke,  and  i  did'nt  *proud  over  myself*.   well,
anyways, as you might figured by now, its morning here, and  in  a  couple  of  hours  iam
going in to town to meet amanda, it'll be great fun.. :P . now iam going to  try  to   get
some breakfast out of elvis, so byee! :P                                                  

What can i say? :) Just got home from the prisoner demonstration  i  visited togheter with
elvis, it was great :). rokking hard, they  maybe  even  filmed  us on tv ;) going to call
mum and dad soon to and tell them to watch the  news  tonight. We sang, and the organizers
of the demonstration deliverd the list of names  to  the program boss at tv 4, and he said
that they where considering showing prisoner once   more  in  sweden,  it  was  of  course
followed by a big applause from the demonstrators. After the demonstration i  felt  great,
really great. Humanity seemed so close ;) weird, it was just a demonstration for  a stupid
soap opera ;) . well who cares, after that we went to elvis school and had a look  around.
Right now we're sitting in his apartment, listening to covenant  !  :P . we're  going  out
today, to some party that a classmate or something of his has. well.  happy  love  lovers.
kaH!                                                                                      

guschjhh! some book rock, .. Like the one iam reading right now, The cat who walks through
walls. UUH!!! read it :P . Anyways. School was okay today, did  nothing  at  the  computer
course as usual, but i went home and installed NT after lunch, and then went  back for the
art class, which was really funny today, we did some "grafik" . uh. hard to  describe  it,
i cant really do it *lol*. But i made a portrait of myself as a hippie ;)  . . looked just
like my father used to do in the 70's or so *lol*. Anyways, i've just finished of the song
i've been working on, "korben 2000". Iam going to get some more webspace somewhere soon so
it will be downloadable here :P . The phonebill arrived today. GASH!  . about 2000 swedish
crowns. that's something like, 250 dollars or so. uuuhh!! .  sucks  bigtime. this means no
new ram memory for me, but ill just have to live with it.  .  .  Anyways,  right  now  iam
packing for the trip to stockholm tomorrow .. :P .. Have to continue with  that,  so  take
care everyone. love.                                                                      

They are not human. Urk. I just finished off an angry  letter to the editors column in one
major pc magazine here in sweden. They had wrote some  really  nasty  stuff  about  linux,
claiming  that  it  "MS-DOS  IS  WAAAY AHEAD".  Well,  just  could'nt  let  that one go by
uncommented. Earlier today i  fixed  my  bike,  yeah,  it  has  been broken all winter and
finally i fixed it. Uh, it felt great, now i dont have to  walk to school everyday. Rikard
and i went on a trip instantly to "uppsala-högar" which is  an  old  kings-grave  here  in
Uppsala and took many nice photographs. Well, this day is filled with great news,  my  ram
memory arrived today, so now i have all my ram again, which  means  i  can  start  working
again as soon as i reinstalled windows nt. The day did actually suck  bigtime  before  all
this nice stuff happned, school sucks so badly now, well, who cares, have to start working
again. NICE NICE NICE. Love and kisses.                                                   

Kill kill kill lets kill some more for the highest  score.  Darn  it,  iam  tired.  School
killed. uh ;) . Painted some when i got home, had to use all my fluids that  was left so i
can buy new ones. Well, it went straight to hell (almost . . .) .. not that good, but well
practice makes perfect, iam just to darned tired right now.  Peter  and  i ditched half of
the afternoon and went downtown in the sun today instead,  i took some photgraphs of birds
and well, we'll just see how that turns out. Did nothing  at the assembler course as usual
fuck me gently with a chainsaw. its not good. But well,someday we'll do something there ;)
At the "music with computer" course i continued some on the song i've been working on, and
that's what ive been doing here at home some this very evning to. uh. darn  tired, have to
write a rapport for my "special work" that sucks to, but well,  i have to, but i can do it
tomorrow night instead, i think iam going to read some soon.  Hope  i  get  my  ram-memory
tomorrow or the day after that, i cant live without 3dstudio right now, i have so much  to
do, and so little inspiration, well i dont, iam just to frustrated.. *have to relax*, best
not to think about everything that i HAVE to do. well. eh. gotta go. take care.           

Uh. . I dont know. (great way to begin, is'nt it?). Well,  finally  last  night i realized
that i cant go around and pity myself all the time, so i  became  quite  happy, and it was
nice, at first, to come back to school and meet peter & andreas again.  But when we got to
the swedish class i had to get some sleep, did'nt get much in the night,  and all my class
mates where acting like they where like 6 years old, which is  something they normally do,
but usually you can stand it, but now i was tired, and i was'nt in the mood at all for bad
jokes and irritiating high voices, so i got up and just slammed the door and walked out of
there. Uh, fuck, it kinda spoiled my day or so, iam tired as fuck, but it's okay. . When I
got home rikard and I went downtown and bought some tea in the teastore, i bought chai and
some other weird stuff, while he bought something that smelled like  after  eight,  and  a
green tea. Then we went up to the church and took some  weird  photos  of  diffrent  weird
angles of the church, and well,  some  other  photos  on the way home to. Decided what iam
going to do this weekend to, uh, it was kinda  hard  but  elvis  convinced  me  to  go  to
stockholm and join him to a biig party, it'll be fun. Amanda is going to stockholm  to, so
we're hopefully going to meet up and get some "fika" and iam hopefully going to  get  that
can which she bought for me in Mexico, yeah! . Party . :P. The options where  hard choice,
tara is having a party from like this wednesday to next tuesday, so maybe ill ditch school
for a couple of days and go there later, i dont know. . .  Maybe,  also,  matte  & ann are
having a party which i cant attend, it would be fun to do  so,  but  what  the  heck,  big
parties in stockholm, with girls ;) *lol* .. no iam not desperate at all? am i? :P .      

Later. I've photgraphed, loads of it, developed to.  It  was  fun,  some  good, mostly bad
pictures. Loads of chess stuff. like chess. Kill world. only chess left. anyway, one photo
availible in the photosection, more. colombiana . on chess. have some  others.  might add.
ill add. now. uh. pepsi from some arab place. enjoy. popart.                              

Iam confused, i hate life, i hate world, i hate  all.  Well  not  exactly,  but still, how
could i feel so great yesterday and feel so shitty today?  .  uh.  well, i cleaned my room
anyways, and like everyone is online right now, which is  quite  nice .  .  sunday. uh, it
sucks, maybe we'll watch some startrek later. Burny just left the house.  uh. uh. I want a
life, does anyone know a fast recipe for life? . well, in that case, mail me right away ;)
Tara mailed today, obviusly she's got internet now, well, good, then  we can have our nice
little debates over the internet to . .. . we always fight. uh. well.  nah,  i  dont  feel
like writing right now, i feel like dieing or something, so ill just catch you in hell.   

Yowell. I found out what was wrong with  my  computer  yesterday.  UH.  One  of my  memory
modules where broken, the 128 one. UH. It sucks, i spent the whole day trying to  find out
what was wrong with the fucking computer. uh. so now i only have  64  mb  for  the moment,
which means i cant work with 3dstudio at all  :/ .  Ill  get a new memory on the garantuee
but still, it will take some time. Anyways,iam going to buy one more 128 when iam on to it
now. And well, i have to reinstall some cards i removed from the computer in total dismay.
well well, Last night we went to see Nasum & skitsystem  downtown.  It  was  great,  nasum
rocked bigtime, and skitsystem where okay. The only bad thing about it was that we arrived
at 20:00 and skitsystem started to play at 23:30 .. well.. actually  it turned out that it
was great luck for us, since there where no guard outside. . see.  today we found out that
there where a 20 years limit in there ;) We met altemark  and  jenny  downtown,  and  they
had'nt been able to get in.. well well.. Krossgrus where here to, with  a  friend, Rikard,
from Gävle to, they both slept here togheter with burny in the sofa  *lol* . .  Then today
we went down to the Vaksala torg to check out the  weekly  market  there,  found some cool
stuff, but we did'nt buy anything though i felt a  great  desire  to  buy  an  old  sovjet
camera, kneb 19 or something ;) but it was to expensive :P .. Well, now since i know whats
wrong with my computer and everything i feel kind of okay. We're planning for an  upcoming
spantobi demo relase at birde .. we'll see how that turns out later. .. I want a girl  and
i want her now (spontanius thought) :P.                                                   

btw, ILLUSTRATION OF MY MODE NOW FUCKAUD)SRT#(/¤ . KILL. ART -> classic art . a drawing.  

Goooooosch!  from  time  to time I SO HATE COMPUTERS. I NEVER WANT ANYTHING TO DO WITH THIS
PILE OF SHITEEEEEEEE Again!  and  that's  for  sure. Went home from katrineholm today after
lunch and a fast visit at grandmothersplace.  Home, finally, rikard was here, fun, sat down
at computer, happy to see it again. and WHAT  HAPPENDS?  WEEEEEELLLLLLL!? IT FUCKS WITH ME,
NOTHING WORKING, nor linux, nor windows.  I  HATE  I  KILL, i WORK HAVE TO DO. SO . SCHOOL,
PLANETFUCKINGZEUS. UHHHHHHHH. SHITEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! FUCK. H ope it works now, otherwise you
risk never hearing from me again, since i want to kill it slowly. UHHHHHHHH!IHHHH! GRRR!   

Back  home  again,  from  the all long trip to malung & lesjöfors. Just about three seconds
ago  i  relized how much i have to deal with before school starts again, but what the heck,
Iam  just  about to get started with it :P. Right now iam checking out schools, and well, I
have  300  tons of 3dstudiowork to do. Anyways, going to fill you in some about the weekend
and all things that  happned. I had a great time. that's for sure, i know there are'nt much
feelings  and  stuff in the text, but iam writing all the days today, and my memory does'nt
rock  that  much  ;) All I know about feelings and this weekend is that my loveproblems are
OVER, there's nothing to concern about anymore, but iam happy anyways :)                   

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The very first day :P, i got up at 05:30 in the morning, and got myself ready to get off to
the  train. Uh,  early  as  hell,  i  met the gang of syndikalists going away to arlanda on
strike guard. Well, i cant say much about the trip, i slept trough all of it, and  still  i
was  tired when i wondered into karins classroom at 11:30 as usual :P. They where all there
dancing, as they always do :P . Loads of people where  unfortunally  going  away  over  the
weekend,  but  what  the  heck  ;)  . We went eating, and after that we went up to the very
famous  "turistgården" to bake a birthday cake and wait for the nora gang, which we  did'nt
know  when  or  how they where set to arrive. Karin where having her birthdayparty togheter
with a girl called emma, who turned 20 they same day, so they called it a 39'years birthday
party  :P  The nora gang arrived at late afternoon and Karin tried to stop us from drinking
but  she  could'nt quite manage *lol* . People started to drop in, and in the whole, it was
a great party.  I  managed  to get myself drunk as hell, even though i had nothing to drink
(?).  I  dont really know what happned, all i know is that i have a big memory gap from the
last half hour or so :/ . its scary as hell.                                               

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i  woke  up  about  6 in the morning, and stumbled out in the kitchen. Karin and Tara where
sitting  on  a  blanket,  placed  on the floor, drinking tea, listening to nick drake *lol*
the  hangover  was  kicking  my  head  of and i got some us aspirin from tara and went back
to  sleep  in  karins  room after a little while and a couple of cups of tea on the kitchen
floor.  It  was  soft  as  hell.  Anyways,  when  i woke up we ate some pankake and set off
downtown  where  we  had  some  pizza *lol* and then we went to rent a couple of movies. :P
I  was  just  about  to  discover  the  best  thing  about  malung.  The Movie theatre they
have  on  their school! :P We watched 4 episodes of TNG, Fear and loathing in lasvegas  and
200  ciggarets.  Boy,  do  i  want  one  of  those  at home or what? :P When we got back to
turistgården  karin  and  kristin  where  drinking again :P So we could'nt be less good, we
started  as  well.  After  a little while we started a game of trivial pursiut and well, to
be  honest,  i went to bed quite soon, i guess i had a hard time since the day before *lol*
I  obviusly  missed  a  wierd  game  of  TP  where .. auhm, i dont know who won, it does'nt
matter,  but  the  game   always   tend   to   be   kinda   unserious   when   your  drunk.

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The  nora  gang  where  going  home  in  the morning. Karin, me, daniel and kristin watched
200  ciggarets  and fear & loathing again, *lol*. did i tell you i want one of thoose movie
theatres?  well,  good, ill do it again. It was nice to see henry, he had been sick the day
before  that.  Of  course,  he  was  at the party, but i dont rember much of that *lol*. It
was  a  big  soft  day, and after this we went to the estetic room and drawed some, then we
stole the pencils and some papers  back  up  to  the  turist  gården. Everyone was going to
sleep  since  they  had  school  the  next day. I stayed up and drawed half of the night :P
Iam  going  to  add  some of the drawings here the minute i get home, be patient friends :P

sub headline :P 00-03-20.                                                                  

Woke up quite early since karin was going to her class, i made myself some brekfast out  in
the  kitchen,  tryin to conversate some with helene and her father (their from danmark, and
he  where  there  for a visit). Anyway, I started to draw again, and after a while,  daniel
woke up, he was going to the doctor. So i followed him into town and got myself a sallad at
the  pizzeria  ;) I got back and continued the drawing *lol* .. A weekend of drawing my ass
off ;)  Karin  &  kristin  stumbled in sometime around lunch, to tired to be in school, and
Daniel  came  back at about the same time . He had been to the doctor and he got some cough
medicine with morphine in it.  He  did'nt  wanna  give  away any, but there where some left
from  someone  who  had  left it there since the last term so i had that instead, and karin
had  some  to  :P It made my mind feel as if it where made of jelly beans or whatever *lol*
really  nice. .  but i dont think its good to use it to much *lol* .. We played some tp and
had a really great time.. At night Karins father came and got us away  to  lesjöfors  where
we where going to babysit the dogs ;)                                                      

sub headline :P 00-03-21.                                                                  
did  nothing,  absolutley  nothing. Well we had dinner at karins grandparents, that's about
the most exciting thing that happned. :P Otherwise it was just soft.                       

Okay, doing that damn laundry again. uh. and iam kinda  tired. :) but still happy, going to
malung tomorrow, bought karin the best present i know of ;) . Well, so ill be there for the
weekend, and there will be a party, altough  i  heard  some people are going to go away for
the weekend. well, who cares. it'll  be  fun anyways. This morning we where scheduled to go
to arlanda for that strike thing, but the strike was cancled today :( and we ended up at LS
taking a second breakfast instead :) It was cousy, and i met Elin, fribergs old girlfriend,
it was nice. Well. Anyways, after this weekend i will  go  to Lesjöfors togheter with karin
for a couple of days, and then i will go home to mum  and dad for another couple of days :)
and then, the next weekend there's a nasum&skitsystem  concert  here  that  me,  rikard and
burny (perhaps krossgrus to) is going to attend to. we'll see about  that.  Until  then,  i
wont be able to write anything here, but i figure you'll be okay  anyways,  ill keep taking
notes on my laptop (if i bring it) or by paper, so you can read  later  :P  .  Loveya  all,
kisses.                                                                                    

Uh, woke up at an early hour as usual today, went into the shower,  and guess what? THE HOT
WATER in the shower was gone.. grrr. I have to have a 15 minutes hot shower in the morning,
otherwise iam just a zoombie, that and a cup of tea. So, i went to  school  as  a  zoombie,
Did nothing before lunch, just tried to stay awake. After  lunch  we had swedish, and i got
about half an hours sleep when we watched a movie. My swedish teacher gave me a paper which
said, "What are you doing to not get VG?" (which  is  the  second best grade). uhm, well, i
wrote a little poem about life for her, and she wrote me  one  back  about  that  i  should
study ;) After that we had company economy, the hate subject in front of all.  At  first it
seemed that no one was about to show up except peter and  me,  but  the  rest  of the class
eventually showed up, i felt like shit, company economy  so  sucks. I  drawed  this  little
thingy during it..                                                                         





Anyways, i got home, got some food and got sleep. Mother called and waked me  up, and i got
back to bed again, then Karin called and woke me up again, but this time i  took the  phone
over by the bed ;) more important talking to your friends then your parents  *huh*  :P. She
reminded me of that i was to come visit her this  weekend.  .uhm,  its  her 19'th birthday,
and i still hav'nt got a present . .. Well anyways, i dont feel uneasy about going anymore,
it will be fun. Well well, then i took a shower, and here  i  am,  guess  ill  be awake for
like the whole night or something ;). Tomorrow morning is  an  early  morning  since  we're
going strike guarding in the taxi strike in stockholm, so i guess i have to  try  to  sleep
some, anyways, it will be a great godness, and iam feeling just fine right now.            

Okay,  dead  tired.  Finished  off  an  assignment in the assembler course in school today.
feels good, iam just on my way to bed actually. . .  Started the special work today to. uhm
Alte called and asked me to help in the current taxi strike in stockholm as a strike guard,
of course ill join, thursday we're going,  me,  alte,  marcin and emelie. great. I finished
reading stranger in a strange land for the 3'd time today. it was great  goodness i grok ;)
So i've begun starshiptroopers instead, seems like a good book to me.  Huga.  the last days
i've been spending far to much time on the internet, it will ruin me, i so have  to  cut it
down, father will kill me. though. love in my heart (?). forgot to call Gavle.  fuck.  Have
to call Karin to ask about the weekend to, hell. shit. well i will. Now  i just wanna check
my mail for the last time tonight and go to sleep, think rikard is sleeping  already,  well
loveyall. kisses.                                                                          

Eating shit, bull shit. Gooodday. Dead. Going to work  on  specialwork tonight,  exhausted.
School is killing me as usual, but at least today we did something there. Peter & mine work
partner, hedberg, was sick. . . But well.. At least I've done something  funny  today, feel
the vibe. . uh. I've been debating on the dn homepage, about  school, it was fun as hell :)
Loads of weirdo moderats that i could kick  the  ass  out of ;) their arguments doesnt hold
for three seconds :). And then yet i've been  in the  most kick-the-worlds-butt mode today,
i agrued for genocide and animal sex (hey, did'nt say i  was wierd), with Emelie, of course
i did'nt mean a shit with what i said, but as always, its fun  as  hell to piss her off. We
watched  the  most  annoying  movie  today,  some  strindberg  shit with wimen that was soo
anyoing ;) *lol* .. Had a hard time standing it.  . Today  i   was actually set to call for
prospects from the Galve hogskola but i did'nt really have time,  and  i  went  to sleep as
soon as i got home, so ill just have to do it tomorrow.. .. Uh. we have music with computer
tomorrow, kinda fun. well. just bullshit talk, gotta get going. seeya.                     

Late late late night. late late late night. anyways, today i took like a load  of  pictures
or so, and i figured i had to put up some of 'em. black & whites. some really   nice  ones.
check em out in the photo-art section. . I also deleted senap.mp3 due to lack of  space,  I
will try go get another place to store it later, if you want it right now, mail me .  .   .
Anyways, iam going to bed in a litte while. . . school tomorrow, yikes.                    

So, Krossgrus have been here, and so have elvis. Last  night  we  visited  a party at cyc's
place, drank loads of beer and had a great time althrough. Krossgrus is cool,  he  sure  is
a great spantob ;) Now, tomorrow iam going to start working on my "specialarbete" but today
we're just gonna watch some movies or so i think .. :P .. *dead* ..  and  continue  on  the
song iam working on . . . Btw, last thing here, .. :P .. yesterday  we  started  on a co-op
pixel picture when we where drunk, we might finish it of now later, it would be kinda cool.
take care.                                                                                 

So, status for today. Was to school. Played wierd song on  "make   music   with   computer"
course. Teacher did not enjoy, gave me paper with piano stuff.  Actually, i did'nt think he
would enjoy it, and i consider what iam working on right now  my  best music work so far ;)
*lol* Tomorrow Krossgrus & elvis is coming, there will be  party  at  cyc's  place.  happy.
good for life. good for wife. Also fixed netadapter forlaptop,  grok?.  good.  Nice.  nice.
they watch bond, i watch computer. enjoy. bye.                                             

Okay, so today iam back to happy, i decided to stay home this weekend, and go to Malung the
next one. I washed my hair  today  pppp-arty ;) . . it went like 5 weeks and 5 days without
washing before, well, now  iam  back  to  german-gay-synth-pop state of mind ;) Gustav went
away this morning, to visit our friend burny in västerås,  this  little  thing caused me to
leave him my key. . . Then in school i started to feel really ill, and since  i  had no key
i couldnt go home, but i went home after a while anyways, and Rikard was luckly home.  I've
been starting to work a little bit on the next generation of planetzeusgraphics, we'll  see
what might come out of it. Now iam going to play around for a while, so catch ya.          

Okay, a major dillemma have appeard right in front  of  my  eyes,  except  for  that  usual
depression about school and stuff. Krossgrus where  scheduled to come here this weekeend on
a spantobiparty thingy, and i felt really nice about  it,  and  then,  Karin called  me and
toled me about this party in Malung, which i really would like to  attend,  which  splitted
me in two parts, should i go to Malung and have a great time or should i stay here and have
a great time? .. well.. i dont know, if  i'll  go  to  Malung,  there  are   certainly some
personal problems i would have to deal with.. which iam not sure i can handle  . .   *sigh*
well, i dont know, my mind is puzzled. Right now, school is also a major trouble in my life
there are loads of diffrent things i have to deal with there, and i really  -must- do  them
right now or something like that.. *sigh* .. i dont know what to do ..Now, anyways,  to the
good news of the day, I called Nacka about the  graphic studio education they  have  there,
and they WILL run it this autumn, so I just  have to make sure to get my ass in there, will
be hard, but i HAVE to make it. . . . now.. i have to leave, we have washing day right now.

Feeling great. strange thing. Well, went to school today anyways, a little bit late, but it
is always something. Talked to my mentor  about  my  special-work that iam going to do, and
arranged it to borrow a digital camera tomorrow,  so  i finally can get started. Otherwise,
school was nothing as usual, the most important thing that happned when i was gone for like
2.5  days  was  that  two  harddrives  where  stolen,  so  we are not allowed to sit in our
classroom   in   the   lunch   break   (Doh!),   the   class   protested   heavily   on the
"collective-punishment" and played Unreal the rest of the day (well,  i  did'nt  i  went on
skunk as usual instead ;) .. When  i  got  home  Altemark  &  gso  where sitting here, just
starting of on their cooperative song they have been planning on doing  this  week,  great.
Which actually brings my mind back to school (doh-again!),  we  had  "music  creation  with
computer" today, its usually kinda okay, but the teacher is a music teacher, and he's kinda
bitchy about  using  other  programs  then  cubase,  which in my opinion is no good at all,
anyways, we made  a  deal  that  i  could do some "own work" instead of doing the things he
toled us to. . There are som  guys  that refuses to use cubase (well at least almost), they
use only ft2 (which is good in my  opinion) but they soo suck!! I mean, standardized shitty
rave-goa-trance things, and its  not  even  good  rave-goa-trance-thingy, i can see why the
teacher is giving them a hard time *lol*. Maybe ill finish  of  that pippigärndöd with only
pippigärndöd material soon so i can give him something  so that i dont have to prove myself
to him all the time ;). .. now where were I ?  . .  At  home,  right :P, altemark & gso was
making music, it actually felt really nice having them both here  making  some  nice music,
and after that now we've been trying to write some cd's, but well, we managed  to get gso's
network working at least, so i guess we'll write them on rikards computer  later,  since  I
have no urge of getting my writer to work in linux.. Altemark pulled some really really bad
jokes while beeing here *lol* .. We typed them down and will use them in the upcoming  snl.
Today i also took a great friends advice and wrote down some of my  thoughts  according  to
love, well see how that can help me in my thearapy ;) *lol*                                

Okay,  so  another eating-popcorn session in front of the computer with Gustav *lol*. I was
at  the  dentist,  and  I  dont  understand . . How the hell can i come home happy from the
dentist here all the time.. okay.. so maybe  I  do understand it ;) I have like the coolest
dentist *lol* . It was  like  crazy,  I  cant  understand  how  she managed to fix my teeth
today ;)  i  laughed  my  ass  off all the time at those bad jokes she & her assistant keep
doing  all  the  time  ;).  Have  to  go to school tomorrow, otherwhise there will be a big
crisis ;)  *lol*.  We  made  the  best  food  today to, me and Gustav,  and  afterwards  we
had a long discussion about politics. great, at least  we  could  agree  on  one thing, the
world needs a radical change, in the left direction. anyways better be going.              

So,  another  ditch-school  day, this is NOT good, hell no. Gustav and i sat up in front of
the computer all night, doing just wierd  things (music, pictures). In about one and a half
hour iam going to the dentist  (uh).  .  Well..  then  i  need some more sleep after that I
think ;). There is a very special  person  having  her  birthday today to.. Happy Birthday,
loads of love out to you moonie!                                                           

Okay,  so  Rolbol  was  here  today.  We  as out having like, the biggest pizzas ever or so
(except some that we've been eating in  Säter  after  dh  ;P).   Been  working  with 3dsmax
almost all day, and i feel kinda that i have nothing left to give for a couple of days, the
result turned out quite okay though. . . (of course i will continue later). Tomorrow school
will be there again,  sucking  the  living  lust  out  of  my  soul.  I also have a dentist
apointment (doh!). Right now Rikard is watching a movie, Gustav is  making music / watching
movie, and iam right about to get on the internet for a little  while.  I feel that life is
coming to a more complicated phase again .. uh. shit. . .  And  we  have  like tons of snow
(again) where the f*ck is spring anyways?. I  want  some summer, i wanna sit in a park with
my friends, a guitar and some redwine (perhaps  a  girl  to?  ;). . . No lets look over the
situation again, iam a nerd, we're not allowed to have girlfriends,  did'nt  you know that?
The  moment  you get a girlfriend, you seas to be a real nerd or something like that (okay,
so that might not  be  true,  but it kinda feels like that). I kinda feel like painting to,
have to buy myself  some  of  those  really dangerous chemicals or something like that :P .
Anyways, gotta be going on to the internet now, so i better stop writing.                  

Iam tired, did'nt get much sleep  last  night.  Slept  on  the kitchen floor&in the bed, ..
wierd, anyways, gustav is here now, its nice, going to do  some  3dsmax  later  on  *dead*.



00-03-03 pending 00-03-04:

Miss M called earlier today. It was actually nice  to  hear from her again, it was a really
long time ago, i hope i see her soon actually :P  Iam  dead tired right now. Radon & I have
been watching James Bond all night. And all day  i've been working with 3dsmax. The picture
that will come out of this will so  rock.   Actually  i  wanna continue to do some 3dstudio
right now, but iam simply to tired :P  Tomorrow gso will arrive here, it will be great fun.
Everything feels kinda okay for  the   moment,  its  soft.  Swedish  tv3  will  be  showing
demolition man tomorrow, i guess  it w ill be like one of those old B-movie evnings ;). But
for now i will sleep.                                                                      



00-03-03 :

Home, as done as can be for the moment with this page. I  ditched  school   today. Though i
called my mentor at school and told him to take a look at the  uploaded  version   of  this
page so i guess it will be allright. Anyways, Iam in a good mood still, now i have  time to
do things that i wanna do this weekend. Will be some  3dstudio,  and gso is coming  down to
uppsala, it will be great. Now, time for breakfast.  so  enjoy.  more  updates  will  come.



00-03-02 :

okay, this page is finally up, had a hard time with the cgi, but i found a great gnu-cgi ;)
later on iam going to use the swipnet cgi, so i will delete  this  one.  School  was rough,
as usual when you go there ;) Anyways, it has been nice finishing this page (well.. almost)
and so.. well.. ill be filling in more later when the final is up at swipnet.