My feelings about Tinnitus six mounth ago and now
I'm living in a world of sound and noises.
Never a silent moment.
In a way it's like wearing sunglasses at night.
Sure you can do it but it's enoying and difficult.
Or to be forced to listen to the same song over and over again.
Everytime someone is talking to me i've to listen to two voices.
And it makes it hard to concentrate what they are telling me.
I'm tierd so tierd, both psychically and physically.
Never sleeping a whole night through.
Never feeling that "woow it's a new day," always feeling "i just want to sleep five minutes more".
It's stressful knowing that you're going to listen to the same consert tonight when you're going to bed.
Because it's when all is quiet around me that i really can hear the full strenght of the noises.
The biping and wind and the crickets that seems to live inside my head.
I'm staying up late watching tv and listening to the radio until i'm so tierd that i'm just passes out.
A feeling that i'm forgotten by the sience and the doktors.
Nothing to do.
No pill that can help me.
Is there nothing that i can do?
Now i've learnt to know and accept my handicap.
Well yes it is a handicap!
I've learnt that nothing is hopeless and i'm not alone.
And i can get use to the sounds.
Sometimes i even can forget them.